nox 3/26/13


Depeche mode – strange love
Vnv nation – epicenter
Prodigy and pop will eat itself – their law (request)
Rob zombie – Dragula
Sisters of mercy – this corrosion request
Love and rockets – so alive (request
Oingo boingo – insanity request
Chameleons uk – swamp thing
Dead can dance – ubiquitous mr lovegroove request
Natacha atlas – I put a spell on you
Snake river conspiracy – lovesong
Deathline int’l – paradise city



Access zero – tanted love
Sound of mass production – anna’s song
Imperative reaction – scorpio
Brainclaw – army of me
Bt – dreaming
Fluke – atom bomb
Sneaker pimps – 6 underground
Hal with gillian anderson – extremis
William orbit – water from a vine leaf
Gossip – heavy cross
Alabama 3 – speed of the sound of loneliness
Delerium – euphoria
Apoptygma berzerk – kathy’s song
Supreme beings of leisure – strange love addiction


Front 242 – headhunter/welcome to paradise (request)
Imperative reaction – scorpio
Urceus exit – the worst that we’ve become
Mind confusion – vivre sur video (request)
Sub level 03 – sweet dreams
Oingo boingo – dead man’s party (request)
A-ha – the sun always shines on tv
Gary numan – dead heaven
Photek with daft punk – end of line
Infected mushroom with kinky and van halen – becoming insane
Djs from mars with fragma – insane in da brain
Dead can dance vs jon the dentist – novacane
Razed in black – oh my goth



Nox wet munch

E nomine – metternacht dj neshamah rmx
Infected mushroom – becoming insane
Apoptygma berzerk – kathy’s song rmx
Blank and jones with robert smith – a forest
Assemblage 23- drive
Alabama 3 – woke up this morning rmx
Meg lee chin – heavy scene
Love spit love – how soon is now
Concrete blonde – bloodletting
Nick cave and the bad seeds – red right hand dj neshamah rmx
Metalica vs lady gaga – enter telephone



Mind confusion – vivre sur video
Urceus exit – the worst that we’ve become
Icon of coil – dead enough for life
Golden boy with miss kittin – rippin kittin
Kmfdm – megalomaniac
Djs from mars with fragma – insane in da brain
Katy perry – et rmx
Thoushaltnot – last comfort
Apoptygma berzerk – o fortuna never dies rmx request
Johnny cash with encoder – hurt
Gary numan – dead heaven rmx
The cruxshadows – it’s a sin
Big pig – break away


Mardi gras

Informatik – flesh menagerie
Deadmau5 – aural psynapse
Bt – dreaming
Symphony of science – we are all connected rmx
Trans x – living on video rmx
Apoptygma berzerk – unicorn
Mephisto oddessey with statik x – crash
Skinny puppy – assimilate
E nomine – metternacht dj neshamah rmx
Boole – blow up the world (request)
Sub level 03 – sweet dreams
Funker vogt – city of darkness
Tim minchin – the pope song

hero worship

i have been really thinking on this for the last few days and i think it’s time to actually write about it.

we all have people that we look up to. that we idolize. it’s ok to admit it because its just the nature of the way that we live, especially if we are dorks and proud of it.

i know that i have heros just like everyone. i have even been lucky enough to meet a handful of mine, and yes i did totally freeze up when i meet them. i have squeed inside, but every out loud when my hero has been there. i have always tried to act as normal as i can. (i learned this is a good idea after working with some big guns in the film and music world. they just want to be treated like everyone else. and i always do that now.)

i can be buzzing on the inside, but still hide it as well as i can.

however, i have been on the flip side of this too.

i am a dj and have been able to do some really amazing gigs over the years to the point where i have a fair following and actually have my name known out of the area/out of the country too. i get recognized for my work in film and now modeling.

for the most part, people are just cool about it and just treat me like a normal person. it’s the “hey, i love your work”, “can you just sign ****”, or something of the like.

i have even had people cosplay in my event gear at some events. that’s a little weird to be honest.

now i have to admit that i don’t always know how to take it when a fan comes up to me and squee at me. i try to just be nice and talk with them. sometimes they don’t get that i have to be somewhere or have to, more likely, work and dj.

those of you that hang out with me a lot have seen where people will just randomly come up to me and try to talk with me like i know them or should know them and i will stand there like i don’t have a clue what’s going on.

this past baycon, a punker/gamer friend of mine was hanging out with me for a bit as i bounced around the con. a lot of people would stop me every few seconds. he even had to deal with one of my pesty stalkers that night. he joked that it was like being a body guard. actually he and i still laugh about that.

this is just an example of what can happen and how my friends deal with it.

but like i said, i don’t always know how to deal with fans or groupies.

but there was something that happened that was way past what i have dealt with in the past with fans or groupies.

i was djing a mardi gras event a few days ago. it was with two of the guys that i dj with usually and one dj that we are testing to see about giving her a regular gig with us.

i have djed with the new girl one time in the past.

she was way more interested in…. well…. humping my leg than working on her set and she ended up losing that gig for it. she had spent most of the night squeeing at me and following myself and one of my lovers around.

so the other night, i show up and she bounces on me, screaming “oh my god, you’re here. i love you!”

i did talk to her for a bit before going and dealing with some dj stuff and getting myself a drink and talking with friends about what happened the other day.

now she did a fair set, her choices of music where very good, but she was trying to be way to fancy with her mixing and it actually hurt her set badly. found out from a mutual friend that she was trying to impress me with what she could do.

she would have been wonderful if she was just herself in the booth.

i came on after her.

she asked what i thought of her set and i was honest with her. i told her that her choices where wonderful but with time her mixing would get better. and that just comes with time and practice and she would be getting that the more she does it.

then came the speech…. that i have a feeling she actually really thought a lot about. it was about how it was such an honor to work with me as closely as she did this time. about how i am the reason she is djing. about how i changed her view of music. how she spent a little while dressing the way that she would see photos of me. and then she went into this big thing about how she wants to work with me again and asked me when it would happen.

i didn’t know what to do or say at all. all i could do was look at her a bit blankly. ok, i admit that i was a bit more drunk than i usually am when i dj due to the week that i had prior.

but i didn’t know what to say or do after that. all that i could was smile and nod at her and start my set.

during my set, she did dance some and got her friends out there too. she made one request, that i had. i did play it because i was heading that direction in my set to start with.

when i was leaving the club with my primary, she was yelling again how much she loved me and was kind of all over me when i was trying to get home to bed. it was noticed by a few others. one thought that it was kind of weirdly obsessive.

this is one of those things that yes, it’s a huge complement that someone could be changed so much and so inspired by my work. it really is, but i just don’t know how celebrities do it at all.

i have never dealt with being fanned at on that level in my life.

a complement, yes.
obsessive, could be.
uncomfortable, yes. kind of. i know i was still on edge after being sexually assaulted the week before.
sweet, kind of, in a weird way.
life changing, yes. in 19 years as a dj, i know that i will have to deal with this from time to time.

i just need to learn how to deal with it.


I am very much still a little gutter punk at heart and very much a little goth girl now.  That mixed with a love of pasties, means that I just love the idea of leather looking spiky pasties.

I grabbed the Stud Pasties by Coquette.  It is a set of one pasties.  The are made out of fake leather with little metal spikes on them.  They have an adhesive on the inside of the pasties.  

That adhesive is way into the pasties.  It makes it a bit hard for them to stay very well on my nipples.  They kind of pop off a lot.  I know that I have smaller and my nipples are fairly centered on my breasts.  I kept having to push them back on.  The adhesive is good, but the shape of them makes it very hard for me to move around a lot when I have them on.

I used them for a photo shoot and they did last very well though that.  

They are reusable as long as the adhesive lasts and once that dies, you can add pasty glue to keep them going for a while longer.

I don’t know about being out in public with them, but they are a lot of fun. 


For the last few years, vampires have been the big thing.  I blame Twilight and it’s crazied fans.  But there is big money in it right now and everyone is putting something to do with vampires out.  Tons of vampire books, movies, tv shows, videogames, porns and anything you can think of.

I grabbed Girls Who Bite because it actually looked good and looked like it may be doing urban fantasy lesbian erotica right.  The book was put out in 2011 and has a ton of different short erotica stories by a number of different writers. 

This is lesbian erotica stories done right.  The women seem like real women (even the fantasy creatures).  The are actually fleshed out characters that seem to have life past the short stories.  

But the vampires where really hot.  They are powerful, sexy and very dominate.  I have always loved a powerful female character, vampier or not.  Major turn on for me.  

There is very little blood in the stories, or there wasn’t enough for me, but I am more than a bit of a blood fetishist.

Still keeping this around. 

Steampunk lust

A long ass time ago, I got to get my hot little hands on a few of the victorian era erotica that is still floating around.  It wasn’t really my thing with that all the women where treated as things and where submissive to the men.  Yes, I know it was the time, but still not my flavor at all.  Even though it wasn’t my thing, it was still very richly written and fun read.

I picked up a copy of Steamlust a while back while at a steampunk convention.  A few of us found them and bought them to support.  

Steamlust is a compilation of short erotic stories written by a number of erotic and steampunk writers.  It was put together by Kristina Wright and came out in 2011.

The sex in the stories was just fair.  It wasn’t a total turn on that erotica should be.  Or it wasn’t for me.  But the big thing is the world.  It was rich and very detailed.  Even the descriptors of even little details where very rich.  There was so much depth in it that it made up for the only fair sex.  

It was actually very much like that old school victorian erotica.  Not my flavor, but still a lot of fun.