so the last few days where good.
thursday dinner with my family was amazing. the restaurant that my cousin picked out was wonderful.
i didn’t have to work on thanksgiving night (even though i was ok with that, holiday pay and massive dinner paid for by work). but i guess it was much slower than corporate thought it was going to be so i didn’t have to go in.
yesterday, work was actually good. i ended up on register all afternoon, and that was after the epic dumb. had only a few people that i wanted to just shoot. but most of the people where really fun.
dinner with the in-laws was a hoot. the kids where really funny, well more than normal and my father-in-law was m.i.a. (so that made the whole house happier)
so other than turkey cross contamination two nights in a row and feeling like shit because of it, the holiday was great ūüôā



Xpq 21 – white and alive
Gary numan – torn
Alabama 3 – power in the blood
Fall out boy – dance dance rmx
Fischerspooner – emerge
Battery – betrayal
Neuroticfish – wake me up
Michael andrews with gary jules – mad world rmx
The limousines – dancing at her funeral
Oingo boingo – skin
Carpathian forest – a forest
Flogging molly – if i ever leave this world alive
Boole – mr roboto

i have learned that i am fair at the modern style of modeling (both art and photography). but i am damn good at the vintage styles. i have done 1890s to 1950s. i have yet to do 1960s mod style, but would love to try that at some point. and i may get to try to do the french postcard style soon too. but anything more recent, i just am ok at and it just isn’t as fun for me for some reason.

Painting Flogger

I have started collecting odd looking floggers and some really fun ones.  If there is something fun or crazy looking, I have to have it.

I have some really funky looking ones and ones that are made out of anything from fleece to yarn to relace.

So, when I say The Paint Brush Whip I had to try it out.  It has a leather handle and the brush part is the flogger.  The flogger is like the rubber of a Koosh Ball, only longer.

As a flogger or a whip, this little thing really sucks.  The flat handle makes it a bit hard to use and weald.  The broad brush style tip makes it a bit hard when it comes to impact. 

The only really good thing about it is that it is wonderful for sensation play.  Just running the bristles over the skin makes for a really unique feeling.  

I think I may keep it around. 

In The DJ Gear

I have been mixing my DJing and kink for a very long time.  Actually almost the whole time that I have been in the kink scene I have been mixing the two in totally wild ways.  

I picked up Love Cuffs by NMC Ltd because I was wanting a good set of hand cuffs that would work for humiliation play.  And nothing says sissy like pink cuffs on a big man.  They are made of silver metal and have pink fuzzy fabric around the major part of the cuffs.  The fabric can be slipped on and off of the cuffs to be machine washed.  

The are the classic novelty hand cuffs. ¬†They won’t hold up to a whole lot of abuse or pounding on them. ¬†I have had them slip a few times and pop off of my sub when I have had him cuffed to DJ gear. ¬†They really aren’t that good as cuffs.

But I do keep them in my DJ gear and actually on my DJ bag with all my music more as a way to tease a few of the subs that do go to one of the clubs that I work at.  

Foaming Cleanser

As anyone knows, it’s always a good idea to clean up after sex. ¬†And I clean sensitvie areas with every shower. ¬†Using body wash can be the wrong balance and actually cause some problems for me personally and I know a few other women that have the same problems.

I picked up After It Cleansing Foam by Devine Toys/ AfterCare to try it out to see if it would work better than what I have been using. ¬†It comes in two sizes, six ounces and one point seven ounces. ¬†It’s made out of¬†Organic Aloe Barbadensis Leaf Juice, Disodium Laureth Sulfosuccinate, Cocamidopropyl Betaine, Sucrose Cocoate, Disodium Cocoamphodiacetate, Polyquaternuum-7, Proline, Saccharomyces Ferment, Symphytum Officinale (Comfrey) Rhizome/Root Extract, Calendula Officinalis Flower Extract, Olive Oil PEG 7-esters, Niacinamide (Vitamin B3), Sodium Lactate, Sodium PCA, Allantoin, Panethenol, Sorbitol, Methyl Gluceth-20, Caprylyl Glycol, Phenoxyethanol, Hexylene Glycol, Citric Acid, Citrus Aurantium Dulcis (Orange) Peel Oil, Citrus Aurantium Bergamia (Bergamot) Fruit Oil, Rosmarinus Officinalis (Rosemary) and Leaf Oil. ¬†It is clean in color and smells like bergamot (even though it claims to have no scent.)

It doesn’t have a very strong foaming to it. ¬†It takes a few pumps to get enough to actually get cleaned up. ¬†So it doesn’t last as long as many of the other personal cleansers. ¬†I went though the bottle much faster than I go though my other washes. ¬†

It worked wonderfully to clean up lubes and other sex fluids.  But my lovers complain that it leaves an odd taste when they go down on me after I use it in the shower, even hours later. 

To be honest, I think that I will be going back to my old personal cleanser. 

Pit Bull’s Lead

I have been doing pet play for a very long time. ¬†And for some reason, I always seem to end up with human dogs. ¬†Well, more actually, human wolves. ¬†I have had five over the years. ¬†Right now I have three due to one passing and another getting way to bratty for me to deal with. ¬†But over the last year, I have added a human pit bull puppy. ¬†He’s a massive man that really is like a pit bull. ¬†Very sweet, very loving, wants to be in my lap, but don’t piss him off. ¬†He’s a wonderful guard dog and at very rare times attack dog. ¬†

I had a nylon leash for him for a while, but he wanted something that was a bit sexier and more fitting for the kind of dog he is.  So I got him the 4 Foot Chain Leash by Spartacus.  

It is made out of black leather and silver metal.  The handle is leather and comes with either cone, round or pyramid studs on it.  I got the round one.  It has a claw clasp on it that is a bit smaller.

I couldn’t get the clasp around the large D ring that I have for a collar for my dog boy. ¬†But it will fit on most D rings. ¬†

It is long enough for him to “roam around” some and sniff other dogs. ¬†He also does the cute sub thing where he will hold the lead in his mouth. ¬†But that leaves teeth marks in the leather badly. ¬†They don’t really come out either.

It’s strong enough that he can pull on it and be a little bratty and actually get tied up in it. ¬†

Totally a must for any pet player that has attack dogs. 


was kind of feeling slinky and sexy even in my jeans and t-shirt that night and it showed in my set


Gary numan – pure
Tre lux – never let me down again
Supreme beings of leisure – strange love addiction
Delerium – silence rmx
Continuo – meditation on cannon in d #1
Mona mur and en esch – flesh and blood
Elvis costello – when i was cruel part 2
Deadmau5 – aural psynapse
Vnv nation – homeward
Alabama 3 – 2129
Chumbawamba – salt fare north sea

Left at the boyfriend’s place

As with any lover, it’s good to have things that are yours when you are staying with that person a lot. ¬†I keep some bath things, a change of cloths, a set of jammies and a few other things at one of my boyfriend’s places. ¬†I also keep a few sex toys there too. ¬†Well, this is a man that I sleep with regularly. ¬†

I had wanted to keep a vibe there too. ¬†I picked up the Classic Chic G-Spot Mini Vibe to keep there. ¬†It comes in black and pink. ¬†I have the pink one of them. ¬†It’s made out of¬†PU coated plastic. ¬†It has a soft, velvety feel to it. ¬†It takes two AAA batteries. ¬†It has a push button on and off and power settings. ¬†There is three different power settings and four other vibration patterns. ¬†It is six inches long and an inch in diameter. ¬†It is water proof. ¬†It can be clean with toy cleaner or with warm water and hand soap. ¬†

I am not a fan of g spot vibes. ¬†They usually don’t fit well in me at all. ¬†And this one is no different. ¬†It’s tip is way to big for me to really get it in right without it hurting even with silicone based lubes.

But I am not using this one as a g-spot vibe. ¬†It’s curved tip is used on my clit for stimulation before or during sex.


It doesn’t have that strong of vibrations, but they are strong enough for when you are playing with a lover, but not strong enough for solo play.



I may be changing up the vibe that stays at his place.  





Thompson twins – in the name of love
Dead or alive – you spin me round like a record rmx
Gary numan – cars rmx
Mysterious art – das omen
Red flag – russian radio
Kraftwerk – telephone call
Pierre henri – psyche rock
Apotheosis – o fortuna
Fine young cannibals – she drives me crazy
Front 242 – headhunter/welcome to paradise
Falco – der kommissa